Happy hearts day everyone! May you find love and peace in your heart, whether you're with your lover, your friends, your family, and most importantly, from the one who's always with you, our God. True, Valentines is a celebration of romantic love between two people, but it doesn't mean that you should feel sorry for yourself if you don't have that special someone. Love will come, someday. Just do your part, and God will do the rest. For the two greatest commandments of God are to "Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind," and to "Love your neighbor as yourself, Matthew 22:37-40. As you spread love, it will become infectious, and eventually, love will find its way to you. As they say, true love will find you meaning you should stop and just think of anything else and let it find you.
As for me, well I can say that I've found that special someone in my life. Someone who fills my life with joy. Someone who keeps me warm at night. Someone who gives my life purpose. Someone who loves me for who I truly am. Someone who completes me. Yes, I've found that special someone. Her smile that melts even the coldest of hearts. Her laugh that lights up even the darkest of days. Her voice, which makes the heavens sing. Oh yes, I've found eternal bliss.
This is dedicated to you, my princess. While I cannot give you the world, I can promise you that my love for you will always remain true. For this as well, is the law of our Lord, Romans 13:8; "Owe no one anything, except to love each other, for the one who loves another has fulfilled the law." No one can ever take away my love for you, as it is binded by God. This Valentines day, I've not only found love, but joy and contentment. To everyone else out there, don't worry, your time will come. Never give up hope, because the moment you do is the moment you lost the battle. Happy hearts day! ♥♥♥
February 14, 2013
July 28, 2011
God's love
Hi! It’s been a long time. How have you been? I don’t really see you much anymore… Unlike before, I see you everyday. Not that I cared, back then. It took me awhile to see your beauty. Why is it only now, that we are separated, that I have realized who and what you are? Guess you really don’t know what you have till it’s gone. I used to see you everyday… Now, I’m blessed to see you even just once a week, which is usually not the case. Times have changed, indeed…
I know, that I may not mean that much to you. But you mean the world to me. It took me some time, but now my eyes are finally opened… Where have you been all my life?
I miss you so… I long to see you, to have a conversation with you again. It’s just not the same without you. There’s a feeling of emptiness inside of me. Despite the fact that I promised myself I’ll never fall in love again, truth is, I have. I’ve fallen… Fallen in love with you… And I cannot do anything about it.
Where are you now? Am I lost, or just plain blind? I can’t seem to find you, I’m afraid. I’m definitely not lost, I know that much. But still, I cannot find you. Does something, or someone, stop me from being able to see you? I just want to fulfill my heart’s desire… Guess not…
The world is cruel indeed, and I have long since accepted that. Thankfully, through God’s grace, I will not stay here for long. The world will never give us what we want. And that is the truth. And as for me, I have found solitude in God’s love. “I have been crucified with Christ and I no longer live, but Christ lives in me. The life I live in the body, I live by faith in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.” - Galatians 2:20 God lives within me. I know this, for even when the entire world hates me, God still loves me. He has always loved us, and will continue to do so, for all eternity. So while I may not enjoy things in this world, it does not matter. I enjoy together with God, even though I am undeserving of this. All this is possible, through faith, and of course, God’s love.
July 19, 2011
July 13, 2011
The dark days.
Time is gold. Time is precious. And time has helped me heal even the most tormenting experiences. One of these experiences, and most likely the most painful one, is this experience I had before... And perhaps, it is time to tell you my story...
It all started on one October morning. It was a Saturday, and for some odd reason I was in school. I saw a girl, whom I recognized as my bestfriends’ sister, a beautiful freshman, at the time. I fell in love with her the very first time I saw her. But, this is really the first time that I am able to talk to her. She went to me and asked for help. And that’s when it all started…
We quickly grew close to each other. She quickly got me involved in her predicament. Eventually, I was punished for it. But this was to ensure communication between us, which at the time was the only thing that mattered. So I let her borrow my phone. Who knew that she was banned from using phones, or any other forms of indirect communication? Her parents found out about it. And I had this scary experience with her dad in which the point of the whole conversation is for me to stay away from his daughter. Reluctantly, I agreed. No way was I going to do that… At least, not yet. I am very stubborn, because it’s just not right not to be able to talk to her… It pains me beyond reason. Unfortunately, things were made very hard for me. Everyone around her was told not to even let me near her… I had to think of another way… And so it came to an exchanging of letters. It went on for a while, until someone finally found out, and snitched on us. And this time, her parents gave a condition… If I ever, and they mean ever, communicate with her ever again, her schooling will be stopped. I was madly in love with her. My heart longed for her… But I cannot, I really cannot… For if I do, she will suffer…
One day, I saw her alone… That was after around 2 months of not being able to converse in any way at all. I saw this as an opportunity, and decided to take it. We spoke, it seemed like hours to me, for I was lost in her beauty. And it was truly an enjoyable moment, one I cannot forget. That is, until, her sister, of all people, saw us. My once bestfriend told their parents of course. And as expected, they carried out their threat. She was taken out of school, and I punished by the school. Not only did I lose any chance of being with her, but she might possibly have lost her future, and ultimately, her life… I was devastated… Months of guilt, depression, and regret. Of course it was my fault. For if I had just stayed away, none of this would’ve happened. But it had to happen. Had to be drawn by temptation…
Even though she was wrong in a lot of things, I still obeyed her, without question. For as they say, love is blind. The bible says in Proverbs 10:12 that "hatred stirs up dissension, but love covers all wrongs.” In that sense, my love masked all the sins that she has committed. Yes, I was blinded. But, even when I decided of my free will, I still chose her. And so it is indeed my fault. I made her pay for my selfish acts. I cannot even begin to understand what have I done wrong? Eventually, I came upon this verse, which helped me perceive my situation. This verse is located in Proverbs 3:5-6 and it goes as follows: “Trust in the Lord, with all your heart and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths.” Only God knows why this has happened, to both me and her, and I must trust in His decisions, even if I cannot understand His will. For His will is greater than mankind’s, and therefore I must simply surrender to Him. The verse 1 John 2:19 may possibly explain why, and it goes; “They went out from us, but they were not of us; for if they had been of us, they would have continued with us. But they went out, that it might become plain that they all are not of us.” Through this, I have learned to accept, and move on. I have done my part; the rest is up to you, o Lord!
July 10, 2011
The Way
Have you ever felt lost? Have you ever felt that no one ever pays any attention to you? Ever been left hanging? Well, I have. I know what it’s like, how it feels. I have lost everything once. I was once a hopeless case. But, to tell you the truth, it really is just up to the person. If you say you are hopeless, then indeed you are. But really, when you’re down, there’s nowhere else to go but up. Learn to move on and be thankful for that you are still alive. We only have one life to live, and life is too short to keeping living in the past. God gave us this life to treasure it, not waste it. As he said in Jeremiah 29:11, “”For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.”” Even if, and even when, everybody does abandon you, He will not leave you. He has plans for us. He did not put you in this Earth to suffer. It is hard to see this, and even harder to believe. But if I, a flawed tool, am able to do this, why not you?
Life was hell for me, at a very young age. I had no friends, my parents ignore me, my brothers always fight with me. Unloved and unappreciated by fellow beings. Doesn’t matter where I was, whether it be in home or at school, both are hell. It came to a point that I couldn’t take all this pain anymore, and so I ran away. Walking in the streets, with no idea where to go… I came upon a church and let me tell you that the priest was shocked to see me alone wandering aimlessly towards nowhere. He adopted me into his own home for a while, and nurtured me. At first, he didn’t know what to do with me. At least until God had answered him. And at that moment, the priest knew what he must do. He opened my eyes, made known to me a whole new world, the Kingdom of God
Now I call on to anyone, anybody at all who is burdened or troubled in anyway. I have a question for you. Have you ever shared to God? For God does not let His children suffer. Raise it all up to Him, and listen to His Word. Do not just pray, but act as well, for God helps those who help themselves. Pray, worship, listen, and He will show you the way.
July 09, 2011
The guiding light.
Have you ever been betrayed by someone close to you? It hurts, doesn’t it? After trusting that person with your life, she just abandons you. Yes, I have been forsaken by none other than my so-called “bestfriend.” Even after being committed to each other for years, she just threw all that time, memories, feelings away… My pain and anguish, since she left me, has been severe. Although I tried, very hard in fact, to salvage whatever was left of our friendship, my efforts went astray. She kept eluding me, or if she did notice me, she always left me cold out in the pouring rain, in the beautiful twilight sky. I am without my “bestfriend,” probably about the only true friend I ever had.
That is, until I have reconciled with God. When I had nobody else, I have God with me, forever and always. Though I have neglected Him many times before, He was still ready to receive me in His loving arms. God has been the guiding light, which has put me out of my misery, and has given me my soul back, or maybe even better. Why better? Of course it is better, with God as my pilot, why not? God is the key to our salvation, which is reflected in Psalm 13:5; “I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation.” I am living, and will continue to live because of Him. And when the time comes, I know He will save me through His grace, for I am His child, His faithful servant, now until forever.
Even being in the loving presence of the Lord, my mind still torments me. The human mind is indeed nefarious. While I have learned to forgive her in my heart, my mind is still yearning for retribution. My heart has long forgiven her, but my mind has not forgotten what she has done. An endless struggle, between my mind and my heart. What to do, what to do? While I was dazed, I happen to have come upon a verse, which will help me settle this dispute once and for all. “Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: “It is mine to avenge; I will repay,” says the Lord.” -Romans 12:19. After reading that verse, I know now what to do. God has, yet again, guided me towards the light. Blessed is God, for He is king!
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